#trust30 Day 9: Afraid to Do
The other terror that scares us from self-trust is our consistency; a reverence for our past act or word, because the eyes of others have no other data for computing our orbit than our past acts, and we are loath to disappoint them. – Ralph Waldo Emerson
Emerson says: “Always do what you are afraid to do.” What is ‘too scary’ to write about? Try doing it now.
(Author: Mary Jaksch)
a single story
that is all I want from me
a single story
There is nothing too scary to write about. It is just the act of beginning and actually writing that is difficult/scary. If I never write my great novel then it will always be inside of me in all of it’s potential glory.
Still inside where it will always be amazing and not exposed to the misinterpretations and misunderstandings of the average person.
Still inside where it’s amorphous characters can be what ever they are in their nonexistence.
Still inside where the greatest story never told retains it’s greatness.
Still inside because the exit ramp down my arms and my fingers to the keyboard is closed for maintenance.
Still inside because all the good stories have been told.
Still inside because I can’t put together a story.
A single story pulled from the countless threads that make up the unraveled skein of yarn in my mind.
Writing about this brings up the fear. It is the fear that I can not be the writer that I think and hope that I am.
Why is this so difficult? Why can I not do it?
The fear comes back when I think of finishing a story, or a book, or what ever. Once I finish that, then what? I know that once you do this thing then that will beget more activity/creativity/productivity, etc. I’ve read all the same blogs and books to. But what if there isn’t something else worth putting in words? What if it is terrible?
I know, I know, I know. Just begin and do the work and let happen what will happen.
Knowing it and doing it are in two different dimensions.
